Lirieke: My Ruin. Terror.

Terror
This is what you call me

I strike terror among men
I can't be bothered by what they think
I bare my cross, my soul, myself
I forgive but I never forget

I've been put upon this Earth in female form
But I can handle myself with the best of you
As well as the worst and I often have

I have the right to remain silent
But I choose to speak, sing, scream
I am lips, hips, tits

I am the power of a woman
Strong like music, true like friendship
But without my friends
There would be no music only spoken word

Fucker
Fucker

I am able to change
So I live without regret
Without remorse
Only a remix

I am drunk, I am sober
Heaven doesn't want me
And hell's afraid I'll take over

Don't bother trying to censor me
Or shut me up
Because it won't work

I am cold and distant yet warm and close
To those who deserve to see that side of me
Part of me, the heart of me

You find me so hard to understand in your world
The world you perceive to be so normal
I am deformed, scorned, reborn, I am me
And I know exactly who I am, what I am
And the wrath I bring

The ugly beauty, the lying truth
The virgin whore, the quiet storm
A lover, a fighter, a saint, a sinner
A sister, a daughter, old school a beginner
I have decorated myself with love

Hate, truth, you
All of you, both of you
None of you
More than one of you

Fucker
Fucker

With lips like sugar, eyes like meat
I've watched men come, go and cheat
I sleep to dream and dream of sleep

I had a dream Joe
That you were standing in the middle of an open grove
I had a dream Joe
That your hands were raised up to the sky
And your mouth was covered in foam

I've been crucified, justified
And mortified by my behavior
Both feminine and masculine
I am a contradiction and juxtaposition

My relief is my release
And only time will tell
All's well that ends well

I am unsweetened, unclean
Been called drama queen
Ex girlfriend, ex member
The tantrum, the temper

I point my finger, take the blame
And this time I will own the name
Because no one is going to ruin me
If I have to, I will ruin myself
And it will be my ruin

Fucker
Fucker
Fucker
Fucker
Fucker